I am intoxicated by existence. To have 70 years out of the uncountable billions, To see the universe so young, is a gift beyond value. I am suddenly conscious of the atoms that make me up And the ever-shifting pattern of them that is me. Like a standing-wave in some hyperdimensional flow We are here, waiting for that final time the current flicks.
I see the stars I’ve missed so much In a dark sky From my bedroom window, While a distant train Rattles its way across the fens. This pocketful Strewn across the black Has the carried heat Of a corner fire, Unclenching my city-banded heart.
There is a care in glances That casts out fire from the soul. It connects two sparks of light As they fly together through the dark And says, however deep the night, However fierce the storm, If you see me, You are home.
Oh mouse, Oh mouse, Oh tiny shadow-dweller of my house, What death is thine, What, sings the bluebottle its mournful song? What of thy kin? The million hordes, Scratching a dirge 'neath the skirting boards. A wake needs food, Cheese perhaps? On a little table? Watch out, it... Snaps.
We live in a world of ghosts. An aftermath. The Age of Mammals. Great. We cannot see past the "ordinary" to what was lost. We look at trees whose sharp and bitter leaves Avoid the meal they will never be, And branches that grow high to escape Mouths that will never reach for them. We listen to a dawn chorus that has lost its baritones. I miss those ones I've never heard. And wonder how it would have been To look into the eyes of Troödon, Or out of them.
Grief is not about sad words, Or eyes filled with tears, But about empty places That will never be filled again. It throws up words, like white wood Left by the sea on lonely sand; Bones, cast upon the pale clay of the soul; Struck from me like sparks from stone, Falling unheard into darkness. A wondrous fire has gone out, and, all understanding lost, I gaze into the ashes, cheeks unwet, Unseeing; soul waiting for the dam-burst.